Got slapped in the face with formaldehyde just a couple of hours ago. It was kind of like eating something really hot and getting a rush to the nasal cavity. Although I'm sure I killed a few brain cells as well. Whats a couple more? It makes me wonder why people do stuff like this on purpose. The last thing I need is less brain cells. I'm not very smart as it is. I'd like to thank the DARE program for helping me say NO to all the illicit drugs that have been offered to me in the last year.
I'm graduating. Who cares? I don't. Alot of wasted time. Although it did keep me busy, and people thought I was accomplishing something. But really I'll I was doing was putting words on paper. I have no idea what I'm doing, no real learning took place. Where am I? Who am I? I remember looking up at the Y, an interesting symbol up on the nearby huge mountain, and asking myself just that: Y? And now I realize I should have just done what I thought was best, leave and never come back. But if I did that I would look back and think, what was I thinking, I should have stayed in school and gotten a degree and done something with my life. You see little one life is filled with regrets, you just have to choose the one thats not as bad. I can easily make up for lost time and accomplish nothing. But I am graduating soon, and it appears that I accomplished something, and thats whats important. I'll probably move to the mountains and try and figure out who I really am. Really get to know myself. It's August 18 if anyone wants to come.